“Knots” by T.M. Camp
It’s a story they used to tell when I was young,
at slumber parties
we would gather round in the dark
and then all of the old stories
would be unwound
dusted off
and shared.
Most of them were warnings, I know now,
cautions against the snares of the world
and the dangers
that come with growing up.
There was a ribbon round her throat,
or so one such story went,
and she had a curious husband.
One night,
their wedding night,
he couldn’t resist temptation
any longer
and so discovered that sometimes it’s best
to not try and undo the past,
to leave well enough alone
the knots tied with dark ribbon
by other fingertips
long ago.
Looking back,
I wonder what became of him.
He must have been so frightened,
so young,
no idea what he had done
with his loving, curious fingers.
I wonder what happened to him,
after she lost her head
and had the last word:
â€I . . . told . . . you . . . you’d . . . be . . . sorry…â€
(or so the story goes)
A cautionary tale for all who might one day grow up
to love and be loved.
It’s her story, really
and, as children, we couldn’t help
but feel bad for her
somehow,
ill-used by a man
who was just too curious
or too selfish
to listen to her warnings.
That’s what I thought then,
but now I find
that my sympathies have shifted
somewhat
and I wonder
what happened to him.
Did he,
some other night
years later,
did he find himself
finally
in bed again,
frightened and shaking
as he kissed the sleek pale neck
of a new love?
And did he perhaps weep
with relief
when he found nothing
but pulse
and passion
under his trembling lips?